Cranial Paralogism is a crafted reasoning by
my “shadow mind” to dismantle whatever resolve I’ve
my “shadow mind” to dismantle whatever resolve I’ve
established since I quit...this time. It’s the
worst.
My mind builds a case for giving up quitting by reversing
the negative
viewpoint into the positive to justify
abandoning the effort. Logic does a 180.
North is South.
Good is bad and bad is good. It’s all the lies I tell myself
about smoking. The convincing ones. It’s creepy how
expansive it can get, and
how fast it can work.
Cranial
Paralogism is entirely mental.
It showed up after
I’d quit for some months. I’ve conquered this condition
only once. The most insidious of withdrawal disorders,
it requires concentrated
vigilance of spirit and resolve
to sweep this condition away as soon as it
appears.
It’s my brain at its worst trying
to talk me into doing the
stupidest thing.
ORDER IT TO GO AWAY.
I am an un-smoker because I get fierce whenever
Cranial
Paralogism tries to speak. I
give myself my lecture.
Shut
this part of your brain up. Then tell it to shut up
again. And again. Make
beating cigarettes your game,
your goal, your passion. Tell your shadow mind to
go
back where it came from. When you see a cigarette
on
the ground, stomp on it. That always makes me feel better.
Be a warrior for
fresh air.
Once
I handled this final condition of withdrawal (which
will continue to rear its ugly head forever), I was done
with cigarettes for good. Breathe a sigh of relief.
The above is an excerpt from Chapter 7, Withdrawal; Romancing The Smoke: Reflections of a Nicotine Addict, written & illustrated by John Aaron
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