Thursday, January 31, 2013

CRANIAL PARALOGISM: The Final Stage of Quitting Smoking

Cranial Paralogism is a crafted reasoning by 
my “shadow mind” to dismantle whatever resolve I’ve 
established since I quit...this time. It’s the worst. 
My mind builds a case for giving up quitting by reversing 
the negative viewpoint into the positive to justify 
abandoning the effort. Logic does a 180. North is South. 
Good is bad and bad is good. It’s all the lies I tell myself 
about smoking. The convincing ones. It’s creepy how 
expansive it can get, and how fast it can work.

Cranial Paralogism is entirely mental. It showed up after 
I’d quit for some months. I’ve conquered this condition 
only once. The most insidious of withdrawal disorders, 
it requires concentrated vigilance of spirit and resolve 
to sweep this condition away as soon as it appears. 
It’s my brain at its worst trying to talk me into doing the 
stupidest thing.


I am an un-smoker because I get fierce whenever 
Cranial Paralogism tries to speak. I give myself my lecture.

Shut this part of your brain up. Then tell it to shut up 
again. And again. Make beating cigarettes your game, 
your goal, your passion. Tell your shadow mind to go 
back where it came from. When you see a cigarette on 
the ground, stomp on it. That always makes me feel better.

Be a warrior for fresh air.

Once I handled this final condition of withdrawal (which 
will continue to rear its ugly head forever), I was done 
with cigarettes for good. Breathe a sigh of relief.

1 comment:

  1. The above is an excerpt from Chapter 7, Withdrawal; Romancing The Smoke: Reflections of a Nicotine Addict, written & illustrated by John Aaron